A spin off of "Mommy" from Amy's perspective

"Mommy" Awwww.......

That's a word that I love to hear. I hear it often. In all sorts of ways, whining, grunted, sing song, mommy come see what I found.

In contrast to you... I have been called Mommy for more than a third my life now. Its a role I'm fairly comfortable with. I didn't know it but its who I am now. It's embarrass slowly wrapped its arms around me, encompassing all I think about and all I do. Not a bad thing. Just how it is. 11 years of being mommy most of the time including the last almost 4 years of being nothing but mommy day in a day out.

One of the things that I love the best is taking the boys places. They are both at the age that they don't have to constantly touch me, but hover around, sometimes running ahead and sometimes lingering behind. Always close though. I never have to remind them of that. They actually like being with me. Anticipating what kind of cool things I'll point out or maybe some spontaneous fun that I'll cook up :)
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So I started pre-req classes for nursing school last week. I LOVE it! Its interesting and challenging. B is as about as interested in my classes as I am, so I get to come home and tell him about everything I learn. Plus, one of my good friends is watching the boys so instead of catching up every few weeks, I get to chat with her everyday!

But something's different. All of a sudden I'm not 'just a mom' anymore. This thought occurred to me all of a sudden this week. Of course I've found a group of mommy friends - I seem to attract young mom's :D Something about that gives people an instant connection...

People in our classes are getting to know each other. I've been asked what occupation I used to have. Well... way back when I used to have a fun and fulfilling job as a graphic designer. But that wasn't important. In between, spending time connecting with my kids, teaching them, entertaining them. That's what is guiding me. Its interesting because I used to really love graphics. But the less I did graphics the less I wanted to do more. The more I connected with real people, the more I wanted to not spend my life behind a computer screen. The more I wanted to help people. Really help.

So anyway, I'm lost in my retelling... But somehow I was jerked out of my mommy role. Again I am someone besides the boys's mom. (Of course I still am their mom, but ya know) So when I realized that I was kind of shocked. Surprised. So, now I'm not 'just a mom'... ;)

Of course all this while I've been dialoguing with Abba. Please get me through this day... this week... this semester these pre-reqs. Guide me, keep me fresh and compassionate. Heiress used to use this line and I think I should probably, too. God, keep your arm around my shoulder and your hand over my mouth. Yes, I'm not as shy about things as I was the first time to school. And I think that I need to work on being a little more selective about what I say :)

I think I lost something in translation... but ask me in person & I'll explain it better... Meanwhile, first test is on Monday! Am I ready? :D