Certain Paths

God never fails to surprise. Certain paths that I thought I was choosing by my own free will. I now know that He was leading me. And for a purpose.

I've been blessed with the birth and 9 1/2 weeks of raising my second son. This is so much more than what I imagined. Yes, different. No, not what I would have chosen. But I do know that All things God works together for His good.

I have spent the last several years developing myself spiritually and mentally. Challenging myself to know God more. To read more. To live more. To cook more. To garden more. To be healthier. To be more frugal. God was actually challenging me, not I challenging myself. Its fairly clear now. He knew that in order to raise my next son, that I needed to know many new skills for the challenge ahead. I'm glad I've already stored up that information, because learning on the job would have been a bit harder.

My first son has been his own challenge to raise. And I'm continually learning. I trust that God is steering me in the right directions with him. But, I can't believe how different my second son is. With his own set of challenges already. We have had many dietary issues with him, and after weeks of trial and error, my diet is restricted to meet my sons needs. I now have to read all labels. If I cook from scratch that is best. Which I now know how to do fairly well. I can eat whatever I raise in the garden, so out come the well worn gardening gloves. But most importantly I need to draw from my knowledge of God's love for me to make it through my days. The verses that I have memorized are honey to my soul when I need to be nourished. No I don't have time to dig and ponder over the word. But, I have a wellspring in my soul that will not run dry in times of need.

Follow your heart down the path that God leads it. And surely He will care for you all of your days.

Love,
A.